What a day...

Today is 30th September 2006, my birthday. But I'm having all the time I need to type this...

What a boring day today is...first time celebrated my birthday in the morning...or rather...it's just a "cutting-cake" and "photo-taking" session... Now the house is left with my father, who's sleeping, and then it's me...

I really don't want today to end just like this...but I guess it can't be help...everyone is busy...

Sigh...perhaps this is just another day...there are ppl who wished me happy birthday...and asked me to enjoy...but I certainly am not enjoying today... Well at least they remember...even though "you" seems to have forgotten...

Sigh...this is no doubt the worst birthday I've ever had...

Thanks
~Kaze

One week passes...

One week had passed and I never really did anything...I'm worried that I will not be able to make it for the review...even though it's just a review and it doesn't give any grade. Sigh...and everytime I felt that it was impossible...you said something that made me confuse...I really want to know what you're thinking. I kept telling myself I'll just concentrate on my work, but yet I'm not. I just have to switch on my computer to check if you're online. I so useless, such a failure. Sigh...I wanted to get up at 7am but instead, I got up on 9am. I'm simply so useless. I just feel like giving up everything...just slack until I die...I just can't achieve what I want. What do I really want? I don't know actually.

Thanks.
~Kaze

And I thought I got over it...

Today(9/9/06) is a day which brought back lots of memories and thoughts...I started the day sleeping till I got the sms asking me out and so I went...I looked forward to meeting you...during the whole time we spent together, I realised I havent really got over u. It's like it bring back some bits and pieces of memories and hope...but remembering what you said stopped me from thinking any further. Though we're not alone... I am kinda glad that we aren't...coz I wouldn't know what to say or talk about. I really wanted to stayed a little longer and as long as possible...even though I know the chances are slim. Sigh... Anyway, I went to meet wei qi after that to go airport for dinner...which reminds me of the first time I went there for dinner with my group of friends which seldom had the chance to meet nowadays...We wanted to go home but on the way back, we thought of going back to Outback restaurant to find our ex-manager Alex. Upon reaching there, it's like a force is pushing me to walk faster to see all the staff I know there...though only few were still working. Seeing each and everyone brought back lots of memories about them...be it happy or sad. But happy times always end faster and soon we had to go home...I really missed working there...But I know it will never be the same even if I go back to work. Sigh...and I'm now writing this in the middle of the night...while everyone is sleeping. I guess I'm one who cannot easily forget things...Listening to those sad music made me even sadder...

Sigh...things are always not how I wanted them to be...why am I such an emotional creature? And things that I like are so damn different with people...made me thinks that I'm such a wierdo...

"Why do I sigh, why don't I try to forget...It must have been that something lovers call faith, kept me saying I had to wait..."

Thanks
~Kaze

An unexpected day...

Yesterday, I was suppose to go to orchard to adjust my glasses alone right after my lecture at 11am...While I was going out of school, wei qi called and asked for help on photoshop...I went to canteen to look for him, thinking that he can accompany me to Orchard after handing in his work at 1pm...However, things didn't turn out quite as I expected. He and his classmates were waiting outside the room they're suppose to meet their teacher, at around 1pm...instead of going to get their work printed out. They were just standing there for about 1 hour until the teacher arrive at 2pm. I waited outside that room...along the corridor, until he came out and ask me to wait at the canteen coz his lecturer is giving a "speech". I walked to the canteen, bought some snacks...and sat down to wait for him...saw another friend, and she waited with me for a while...but she has her own friends too and I know she wanted to go to them. It was not long until he called and told me to wait for him until 4pm when he finally can hand in the project because his lecturer had another class till 4pm. I was so damn angry...and disappointed. I finished the food, washed up, turned and walk my way to take a bus...feeling so...pissed. Why? I just wasted 4 hours without anything done. I proceed to adjust my glasses...I stayed in that store for quite some time until they finally decided to order a new frame for me coz that old one was beyond what they could do...no matter how they adjust, there's still a slight unbalance. I went one level up heeren and saw my sis at Action City...working there. We talked a while and I proceed to cineleisure to see what movies they're showing...coz I asked wei qi if he wants to watch a movie earlier. I had a movie in mind that I wanted to watch, but he didn't want to. I called to tell him and he said okok he'll come down. I went back to Heeren HMV to walk around while waiting for him. He then sms me if his friends could join us. Of coz I said Anything...and wanted him to be faster. But he only replied when I'd walked a few rounds around HMV and was at the entrance...just to say he's already on bus le la. He called a while later asking me to go back to cineleisure to look for him and his friends at Yoshinoya, which is not one of my prefered restaurant to dine in. I ate anyway...coz I didn't actually fill my stomach with food coz he asked to have lunch together while in school. I was already quite unhappy...not to mention his friend suggested to watch "Frostbite", a german vampire movie which I didn't like either. Everyone agreed and so did I. I went into the cinema, thinking that perhaps this show could be nice. But it's actually just a piece of junk. It was scary...it wasn't creepy...it was ridiculously lame and funny instead...I was like, "what the f**k is this show?" The worst thing is it doesn't have a proper ending...and it was very low budget...Omg I just wasted $9.50. We didn't went home straight after that...they went to had roti prata...which was a good thing I didn't eat. They said it tasted like chewing gum. I'm not sure abt the rest, but I kinda dislike one of his friends. He acted like the prata was non-edible...just becoz the wet curry plate was above his prata...and he had to fold the prata and "dry it" by pressing on it. And while he was doing that, he just kept scolding vulgar and kept on..."tsk, tsk..." and said he really dun feel like eating...the curry is cold. I just can't stand it...and before that he was talking bad about me and wei qi...thinking that I didn't heard him just because I was talking to wei qi behind. I just couldn't stand him, though I just kept quiet.

And there it is...One whole day of unexpected, unwanted, unhappy incidents. I didn't reach home on the time expected, I wasted HOURS doing nth, I ate something I didn't like, I watched a movie I didn't want to. I didn't get my glasses, I didn't watch the movie I wanted to watch, I didn't get to eat the food I wanted to, and I was with someone who I can't stand...Sigh, this is indeed the worst day I've had since that day...

Thanks
~Kaze