Take care

I just didn't know what was going on for the past few days and will it continue? I don't know. Should you ever feel uncomfortable being with me, just tell me. I will leave. If seeing me reminds you of some unhappy stuff, I'm sorry. I will try to be normal, but if I sense that you doesn't feel happy being with me, I won't bother you. I understand what's going on now and I understand how you feel, I will be patient. As long as I still see your smile once in a while. You taught me that phrase, "You never know who's fallen in love with your smile." when you asked me to smile more. Well, now please remember this phrase whenever you feel sad. Please smile. Nobody wishes to see you feel unhappy, neither do I. Well perhaps you still need more time to stop thinking about it and it's ok if you don't feel like talking. I understand. If you ever need someone to accompany you for a walk, I can be the one. Just ask and I'll go. But meanwhile, I'll wait...Don't get stress over all these le. Take care.

Thanks.
~Kaze

Thinking of you...

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just feel sad when I think of you lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just feel lost when I try to write lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to see you even if it takes all I have to take a cab lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to know what you're thinking lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to know what have I done wrong lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to say goodbye when you leave even if that's the hardest word on earth lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to hear your voice even if you're not talking to me lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just feel happy talking to you on the phone lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to eat anything you cook even if it's prawn I will swallow and not vomit out
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want to see you smile even when they weren't meant for me
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
I just want you to be happy lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala is all I can say for I'm too lost for words......thinking of you.

Depressed...

Today, I wasn't happy till the night. I don't know why but you seem like you doesn't want to see me. I was really depressed when I sensed that. I'm afraid that you will then slowly ignore me after that. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do. I could only sit and stone...Perhaps you could tell me why? Why the sudden change of attitude? If it was because of me saying you're too direct and always say sarcastic remarks, sorry I was just joking around...I'm not angry when you say those things. Perhaps I'll feel uneasy if one day you stop saying, just like today. It's just not you. And perhaps it's becoz you think that I'm getting too jealous about you and him. Well, I don't deny that there'll surely be jealousy. But it's not to that extend that I don't want to see him. We're still good friends. And as long as you're still talking to me, I'm fine. But today I was really feeling down...when I realise you don't seem happy seeing me. There're many times when I thought of just leaving since you doesn't want to see me, especially when we were on 14. But She encouraged me to follow. And so I did. And when I say I'm going over to the bus stop to bring u over, I really wanted to dash across the road, afraid that the bus will come to take you away. And perhaps I would regret if I let today end like this. And yes I brought you over and I did not regret. It just felt like everything is back to normal, though I really don't know what you're thinking actually. Perhaps if you really doesn't want to see me, tell me straight. I won't bother you anymore. It's no point making you feel unhappy seeing me.

No matter what, I still want you to smile always... :)

Smile always...

Perhaps I think too much...but you seems to have started feeling stress being with me. Sorry if that really is the case. And recently you seems to be thinking of something, I'm not sure what it is but it's obvious that you're not happy thinking about it. I hope everytime after you think of your past, you'll think everything through and get a little better everytime. No matter what, you have to face it one day. I can and will entertain you as long as I'm still alive but I know I alone cannot make you forget about it. It takes two hands to clap. I know you're smart enough to understand. And Sorry if I couldn't be the one to share your problems with. But please find someone to talk to and not hide everything inside yourself. Please be happy. Smile always...=)

You want me to smile more and so do I...

Thanks.
~Kaze

Life's worth a little spark

Life's worth too much not to
Bloom or spark like flowers
Risk being plucked

It must play its tune for
The space it'd run to make it
Worth its downs and ups

Don't waste such short chase in
The rat race which is not worth
The unproportioned pain

Life's worth too much to leave
It doomed for the dark let it be
Worthy of being a sore thumb

Make best of life despite
The short space in time let
The fruits bear for one's kind

Be brave spell
The truth and harbour the pain
Leave the tracks for the next corner to gain

Thanks.
~Kaze

Let it be...

I will be strong. Don't worry, everyone. I will try not to think of things that can't be solved now. Things that I can't control. Thank you everyone. I'm listening to "Let it be" by the beatles now. Here is the lyrics..."When I find myself in trouble, mother mary comes to me, speaking word of wisdom, let it be." Well perhaps that's really all I have to understand to feel happy. I can't control and can't solve...so just, Let it be...I will smile like I've always did. Thank you for being so understanding.

There's something I've been wondering since last night...How do you know if someone likes you? I don't really know.

Thanks.
~Kaze

I cried.

I cried. Yes, for the first time after so long, I really can't hold back anymore. It was suppose to be a relieve. Perhaps it really was a relieve for me, I cried so badly like all my tears that I've held back are forcing their way out now. Yet I'm feeling lots of emotions now. I don't know what to say anymore. Now finally I won't have to hide anything. But after this, will everything go that smoothly as everyone wished? I know I won't be able to smile that much now, it's not a jie tuo to me. It just simply solve one problem and bring in ten. I promise you that I will try to smile more. But I know deep down inside me, I'm not smiling. And to him, Sorry I've hide from you for so long. Many times I wanted to tell you yet I can't bring myself to do so. I'm just afraid of things that's gonna happen after I do so. Sorry to everyone, I'm not a good person.

Thanks.
~Kaze

I walked away to keep myself from looking.

The more you view my blog, the more I'm afraid to write everything down...I don't want to worry you. I don't want to make you wonder all the time if I'm alright. I don't wish to be a "responsibility" for you. It will be useless if two person have so much pressure being together. Perhaps you're just trying to know me better through my blog, and I appreciate that. But I'm afraid that something I've written will make you unhappy.

Today is just another lifeless day for me. Being in that room with such a moody atmosphere made me wonder about things again. That's why I prefer sitting outside on that "thinking table". I know you're not ok...you're confused...you're still stuck behind ur past. I understand that and I respect that. It is hard to forget someone who used to meant alot to you. Don't misunderstood, it wasn't because of what you told me about him that made me say this. It was because She told me and I know you cried, telling her about that. I wasn't surprise though...it was expected. Anyway, today you once again asked me why am I with that black face, which made me feel bad, that I've once again made you worry. Sorry. Well, while on the way to lunch, she asked me to walk slowly and let you two be together. No matter how unwilling I am, I still did it, jokingly. When on the bus, she asked me to let you two be alone. Again, I can't deny that I don't feel good, but I just had to do what she said. She's just lending him a helping hand, which part of me wanted to too. That's why I walked alone most of the time, I want to see him happy again, yet I can't bring myself to look. The further I walk, the less I get to see. And did anyone actually realise that I walk infront instead of behind which I normally will? I guess not... Even when I joke, I realised I wasn't happy inside. But whenever I'm with you, all my worries were just gone for that moment. I feel happy everytime we're together. I don't know why but I just don't feel the stress when I'm with you. Well I seriously hope you'll feel the same.

And when I was back from the gents, I then found out you went to look for me. I want to say sorry for making you worry again. I admit I dragged my feet back to the restaurant because it's just too hard for me to face the two of you. Everytime this happens, I don't know what to do but to look away, find distractions to distract my concentration. I won't deny that I don't feel good everytime you're with him, because if I do, I'm just lying. But I know it is only right for you to go. And as for me, I'm fine just thinking about the same thing, which I already got used to.

Lan ping guo told me love is selfish and I shouldn't help anyone from now on except myself. But I just can't do it. I just can't bring myself to do something I truefully know will hurt my friend. Well, perhaps from now on, I should just let things be...and try my best to win your heart by my own. Haha. And also, I'm happy you still tell me about your ex coz it means I'm still someone you could talk to like we used to be. For me, it's like a form of trust. And I thank you for trusting me. And everytime I read your blog, seeing you blaming yourself for what happened, I feel like letting you go, so that you won't blame yourself anymore. Even when you told me what you've written wasn't for me. I don't know if it's true coz if it wasn't me who trigger you to think of a decision after reading my blog, you wouldn't have gotten so stress out now. It really hurts seeing you being so restless throughout the day...I really missed the days when I'm still able to make you laugh more. I just want to tell you it's ok if I feel sad, as long as others are not feeling stressed out. =)

Thanks.
~Kaze

Be happy.

I wanted to delete my previous post but I will not. It was just what I feel at that time. But it's over and I know I'm fine now. Today...instead of worrying about all that, I should think about other things that's happening now. Today, it seems like everyone's tense. Everyone wasn't feeling happy. I really hate to see this, see that everyone's gathering, splitting up, talking, trying to help each other. When this happens everytime, I'm always lost on which path to take, who to follow, and what to say. Today, I chose none. Perhaps I wasn't need. Perhaps I'm really redundant. Well nobody really need me to help, though I think I won't be of much help anyway. It seems like it's over, but maybe it's not. Well I sit alone and I suddenly feel that perhaps I've done wrong. If it was me in his place today, will everyone still rush down for me? Perhaps I will be alone, like I've always had. Perhaps nothing have changed through all the years. I'm still alone. Perhaps the friendster horoscope was true. I've been trying to find the balance between things...being neutral. But I've harmed myself through that and it's time to break away from being neutral for once. Perhaps I will be happy after I'm able to do that...I'll try. But now I just want everyone to be happy. Even if it's not my fault, I just want to say sorry for subconciously made people worry.

Be happy. Whoever's reading this.

Thanks.
~Kaze

Punishment for a sinful person.

I didn't want to think, I didn't want to worry, I didn't want to feel guilty, but WHY does he always remind me everytime after I've spent almost the whole day in happiness? While going home, he told me what I was always afraid to hear. He told me that he trusted me, and believe that I'm not that type of person. I really don't know how to react. I kept quiet. At that moment, I wanted to tell him the truth, yet I can't bring myself to do so. He told me this is a crucial time, he asked me if he should ask? He asked me what to do? I told him what a friend would say. I told him what I know is right to do. Even when every single advice I gave him, I felt the pain, I know it hurts me, yet I told him without hesitation. I don't know if this is right, but i believe it is. I really feel confused, lost. Even when I type this, he's asking me about the food she like. He wanted to do something to let her know the importance of her to him, which I told him to. Every time I advice him, I hide my face from him, afraid that he would notice the pain inside me. He trusted me but was what I did wrong? Was I really wrong right from the start? I knew it was perhaps because of me, that you've written those post on your blog, yet I couldn't tell him. He mentioned it too many times that I just feel like I've really caused too much problems, for you and for him. Perhaps I'm really redundant, like he jokingly said I was two days ago. This world doesn't need a problem maker like me. Sorry to have pressure you, I know I did, though I've tried my very best to keep you happy ever since and I still will. Why does he have to tell me so much things. Deep down in my heart I know I really like you, yet I'm doing this to myself, I really don't know what is the right thing to do now. Everyday, it seems like there're thousands of needles trying to penetrate through my heart. I can tell no one about this, there're really no one there for me when I need one. I shouldn't even trouble anyone any further about my problem, I've caused too much problem. I had no choice but to stop my tears from coming out myself. Knowing that he's going to go find you and perhaps bringing the tiramisu I suggested him to buy, yet I can't do a thing about it. I just feel stupid, but no regret for hurting myself. Should I tell him the truth? at least he won't talk to me about you anymore. But will he hate me for this? I really don't know. Now that new term has started, everyday will be a mental torture for me. I will try my best to avoid being alone with him now as I know there ought to be something he will ask that makes my mind go wild. I know tonight will be a long night...I want to fall asleep, but I can't. Perhaps for the first time, I would like to try some sleeping pills. I know you'll read this, someday, but please don't be worry, I'll be fine. Perhaps it was my fault all along and it's just right that I've hurt myself in the end.

Don't blame urself. Sorry.

Nothing much to write actually, coz I haven't been thinking anything much today. How about you? Please don't blame urself what's happening. It's not your fault. It was just me thinking too much. Sorry to have cause you to blame urself after reading my blog. It's nothing really, I'm fine now. I understand you're in a difficult situation and so please don't force urself too much. Please, don't think that way, you're not dragging innocents into this. And if you gave me an answer "No" truefully from ur heart, I will accept it. It will be painful but I will understand. But please don't simply say "No" to everyone just to end this, it will be a regret for everyone. And now it seems like I'm the one who caused all these trouble...If it really stressed you so much, I rather i let go of you. I know it will be painful and I can't deny that my eyes are already filled with tears as I typed this. But I will let time heal my wounds. We can still be close friends. The most important thing is I don't wish to see you like this. You should be with someone you're happy with and I'm just doing the opposite. I was just an idiot to have think so much. Sorry.

Thanks.
~Kaze

I'm a Chess piece on a Chessboard.

Everyday, I think of when this game will end. Everyday, I think of how this game will end. Perhaps it aren't a game, but I feel like it is now, or perhaps I'm just one of the chess pieces on the chessboard waiting to get moved around. And may get eliminated anytime, I never know. Well will you enjoy playing a game you can't control? Well that's what I'm feeling right now. Perhaps I need not know 'why', but I want to know 'when' and 'how'.

Well I know I wrote in the previous post I won't think so much anymore. But I just can't help but think of the "when" and "how" whenever I'm alone. Or rather, when I'm doing nothing.

Perhaps this game got me living with a purpose, but it stopped me from moving on. Well, I know I have to move on, and I will try to.

But for now, I'll just have to enjoy being one of the chess pieces...

Thanks.
~Kaze

"The beatles" mood...

I guess I finally understand that there's no point worrying so much...I can't control things and definitely shouldn't force myself to. I'll just live on my everyday life like before...everyday(well almost) in happiness. Joke my way through the day...Self-entertained or be entertained. Perhaps this way everyone won't feel the stress level. I'll continue to wait for that day to come...perhaps one day when I feel I can speak up...I will. But for now...I got lots of work to catch up...and has absolutely no time to lose.

I'm back to listening to The beatles. Long time since I listen to their songs...I've been listening to some not very cheerful songs for too long, and it's time to get back to The beatles... Well I can't say for sure but perhaps the usual Kaze will be back now...well at least now I won't think so much...Just want to enjoy everyday life like a normal person now.

Thanks.
~Kaze

Facing him...

I don't know how long can I face him, pretending that nothing had happened. I can't really joke normally with him anymore...The more I talk to him, the more I feel guilty...Just looking at him, I feel like I'm worst than a dog...I feel like I owe him something. I feel...confused. I don't know what else to do. I tried to think my way through but there was no answer. Yet I couldn't get myself to just give up like this...I just can't. I'm really lost...Just wished that I wouldn't have to face him everyday. Coz seriously I feel bad.

Even if one day when everything's over, I don't think our friendship will be the same anymore. The only thing I can do now is to think of how to at least maintain this friendship as close as it's current state now.

And I'm sorry I made you worry...I just want to think my way through...perhaps in the rain, I feel better. I really don't know how long this thing will drag on...and I'm sure it won't feel good for all of us. But I'll wait...no matter what's the answer in the end.

Thanks.
~Kaze

Sleeping in fear...

Sometimes I feel like it would be better to not have told you...At first I was glad that you finally know how I feel...but now it brings me fear...afraid that you would try to avoid...It seems like we weren't as close as before anymore...and there're things you can't tell me anymore...It seems like I'm just another problem for you to solve. Perhaps you don't think that way, but I do...I think I'm just creating more problems for you...which makes me think that it would've be better off not telling you, at least not now. At least I won't have to live in fear everyday...there's always something for me to fear everytime i wake up from my troubled dreamland. This fear is starting to take over me...I just wished that everyday, there's something to make me smile while sleeping and not the opposite. I really am glad you made that little slide thing that day...coz I was feeling down until you showed me that and even though it doesn't have any special meaning, I still want to say Thanks. Coz it got me sleeping at least.

Thanks.
~Kaze

Time...

Why does 4 hours seems like forever when you're alone? Why does the sky seems different when you're alone? Why does certain actions such as eating seems extremely fast when you're alone, so fast that you'd wished that you've ate slower. Time passes so slow when you're walking endlessly, without directions or destination. You don't know where to go. You don't know where to stay. You don't know where to sit. You don't know where to eat. You know nothing. You've become so stupid all of a sudden. Wouldn't it be better if time doesn't exist? Well it's just an imagination though...we can't do without time. haha.

Looking up to the sky above esplanade, I asked myself this : "If you were given a choice, will you want to be given more time or less?"

Well right now, I want more time, more time to do things that hasn't been done, more time to look at stars, more time to wait for you...

Thanks.
~Kaze

Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans...

What if you could live forever? Well...forever can means dying and being reborn once again, and then continue living. Just like the stars... This is basically wad the movie "The fountain" is talking about I guess. It's a good show to trigger you to think after the show...and that's also why I don't recommend people to this show unless you're like me...haha.

sigh...As I'm typing this...I'm listening to my favorite song "I'll find a way" which is on this blog...I don't know why but everytime I listen to this song...Lots and lots of thoughts will spin around my brain...which most of the time makes me sad, even when there's nothing really...for me to be sad about. But I won't abandon this song...coz this is a song which can keep me away from my sleep, yet makes me sleep sometimes...It makes me smile, yet cry sometimes...It makes me think, yet it makes me stone sometimes...Everytime when I'm sad...I listen to this song over and over again till I'm numb...till I get sick of it. Till I feel nothing.

On train just now...I just feel like listening to this song...and concentrate on it till I stop thinking...Without any distractions. Thanks to my phone's "offline mode" I'm able to do so. Well perhaps I think too much, way to much...but well...I really don't know if it was the right decision to hold your hand, really, I don't. Perhaps it would be easier to pull back if I havent done so. I really don't know what you're thinking, what you're feeling...and that's when the fear in me starts to take over. Well, I really hate this feeling of dragging, dragging aimlessly...not knowing what to do or what will happen next...I know life is full of these. Yet I refuse to follow what everyone else think life is. I'm stubborn I know. Well people say life is full of decision/surprises. But what if life is not for you to decide? What if surprises was to come before decision?

Perhaps there's an easier definition to life...Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans...(a quote from john lennon)

Thanks.
~Kaze

The game of life...

Yesterday was a quite a big day to me...Don't wanna say why, but it just was. and will still be. I was really feeling quite troubled before wad happened yesterday...but after I said it out...I felt much more loosen...Although It's only a while and I'm starting to realise new problems are coming...perhaps even more complicated problems...

Perhaps life is full of problems...for us to solve them one by one. Well are we being played by gods then? They created us, gave us life...then gave us food, follow by problems...through those problem...we learnt the way of living...and then, we died.

I don't know about you, but I feel like I'm being played...manipulated. Well that's why we cried, we laugh...and we fear.

Well I'll find a way...to every problem...and continue to play this game of life...for I've no other choice...

Thanks.
~Kaze

No Title

Sometimes I wonder what's a blog for? To write something for someone else to view it I assume... Coz that's the only logical explaination why you need to write something on a blog, isn't it? You can keep a diary and write everything inside with no constrain and there's a very small chance anyone else will know what you're writing in there if you hide it well. So I sometimes find it hard to write on blog...coz there're so many things I want to say but can't. I feel so restricted...I want to write down what I'm feeling/thinking all the time, yet I can't really find a proper space for me to do so...And I just simply don't like the idea of writing black and white...that might one day end up in someone else's hands. Keeping everything inside myself has eventually become a habit i guess...but that's also why I'm feeling so damn...tight right now. It feel as though there're ropes around me...and I really want to break it but can't.

Sigh...sometimes I wonder why shld I seperate words into paragraphs? Why there? And aren't they all words? why can't they be together? Why must they be seperated? For easy reading? Well bullshit...why should everything be so easy? Is it a law to break everything up for convenience? Even if it is a law...so what? Why the hell do we follow laws? Because we're afraid, of coz...it's the fear. And so why must there be fear? Because you want everything to go as smoothly as possible...which also means as easy as possible...hey, wait a minute, isn't this a cycle? well people say life is a cycle...perhaps it is the way you treat life that's a cycle...life itself is not a cycle...you can grow old and die, reborn, or how do u even know you can reborn? perhaps you're just being terminated...a brand new life which has nothing to do with you has been born...simple as that. Anyway, Even if you reborn...you can choose the way you want to treat your life...if you choose to study...work...grow old...die...of coz it's a very common cycle I guess...isn't it?

Well what I've said is very personal and based solely on my opinion...and it's very conceptual. But, why can't something be conceptual? Why must everything be so real...? It'll be too boring if that's the case...no designer...no inventors...becoz there's simply noone thinking/imagining things... If you think again...living in your own conceptual world may be even easier than this "easy world" we created...Coz everything will then go according to what you want...basically based on the word "EASY" I guess...

An easy world for difficult people......

Somethings I realised...or shld I say, I knew it all along...

Well when two person are in love, why must we tell each other? At where or when were we taught to do so? It's just a human instinct, u say? It's normal to do so, u say? Well have anyone ever thought of why is it normal then? Because everyone is doing it? There're many things that we find it normal once everyone started doing. Well, why must we do what others have done? Isn't it too boring...

Well the way I see it, it's better left unsaid. I don't know why, but perhaps that feeling might ultimately change be it you're together or not in the end. But being best friends, we can chat abt everything, say abt anything...without any restriction/limit that a boy/girl friend has. Well perhaps someday you realised that you can reach that "no limit" stage even being boy/girlfriends, then you might be ready then.

Sometimes I wondered what's so bad abt being best friends and not boy/girl friends? Well at least you can talk about almost anything. You want to be together with him/her, u say? Well perhaps best friends can be together even longer than boy/girlfriends.

But if I were the one involved, I know I'll ultimately say it too, if I really felt that strong connection between us. Which I've failed once and afraid to try again. Perhaps that time I wasn't really best friends with her, and so I wanted more, but ended up getting even lesser.

Perhaps saying it meant alot to me coz I've no experience but I know that it will not be the same...it's either best friends, boy/girlfriends, or just friends. Wouldn't it be more miserable being just friends? But if u succeed, will u really become more closer than best friends? Thats what I do not know but think it will not. Many things will ltr become unable to share with each others. Even thoughts...

Well I hereby wish everyone happy telling the person you like and hope it's a happy ending, so that you can counter whatever I've said...I really don't mind. What I said isn't true for all, perhaps just for me, a wierdo trying to think everything through...

Thanks.
~Kaze